I've been reading and meditating a lot lately, in search of answers, in search of myself and what's right for me. Today, as I reflect on 2012, and prepare myself to jump into 2013 with my eyes wide open (as well as my heart, mind and soul), I wonder why it took me so long to do this - why didn't I have my eyes wide open before? Then, I realize, it doesn't really matter. It only matters that I'm open now, and that I'm ready to take the leap. I'm awake and ready to live in openness now, today, tomorrow, and every day thereafter.
2012 was a challenging year to say the least, but it was also an insightful year in which I grew more than I ever thought or imagined possible. The last year brought challenges to almost every aspect of my life - taking the first three months off to care for my newly disabled husband, bringing with it financial, work and relationship challenges. In those months, I found opportunities to improve my health, to improve my relationship with my husband and children, to start making jewellery, to write more, to read more, to do more of the things that I loved to do but never had the time while working a full-time salaried job.
In the months that followed, after I returned to work, I was presented with a whole new set of challenges, along with old challenges that returned with respect to juggling work and family obligations and new commitments with LS@Ridgeview Designs and writing classes. With these challenges, I began to see even more opportunities. And so began my change in view on challenges - instead of seeing them as something to complain about, I started seeing them as opportunities for change, and for growth - personal and spiritual growth, growth in my network, growth in my friendships. Along with designing and creating jewellery, in 2012, I started writing a book, joined a writing group, started this blog, renewed my tenure as a contributing poet to Sibella Poetry Magazine for another year, took a trip to San Miguel de Allende, Mexico (my first trip outside of North America on my own) where I read my poetry in front of an international audience (although not the first time I've presented and to a much larger crowd, it was the first time I recited poetry publicly), met A LOT of interesting and inspirational people who will forever be in my heart, and grew my personal network exponentially (NEVER underestimate the value of SOCIAL CAPITAL). I read poetry again in front of many strangers at a friend's book launch. I grew significantly in my spiritual being, and I will be eternally grateful to all who contributed to that growth (they know who they are). I witnessed some spectacular views of the sun that I had never seen before in my 39 years, and had the opportunity to capture them.
|A spectacular view on my way to work - Dec 28, 2012. Miracles DO happen - just open your eyes to see them!|
Happy 2013 to everyone! I wish you all many blessings in your life <3